RUGBY LIFE > All other aspects of life in general. Fuck, I am so excited for the first tournament. Win or lose, I don’t care. I get back on the pitch. I am STOKED. Plus, I’m using the tourney as an excuse to rep scrubs to school tomorrow. Awwweh yeah. Kickin’ it, and killin’ it tomorrow. This is the best week ever. Oh my gosh. Sheer perfection at every corner. Also, I get to wait a bit for my new tattoos, which actually only makes them that much more exciting and lovely when I have them. There is so much happiness in little things in the world if we take the time to find them. I love rugby season. Happiest four months of my life, hands down.
“The greatest irony of life is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life and sometimes you think you’re already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love; love is always present. It’s just the one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little as we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough and move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more, surely then, you will know true love.”—http://bun.soup.io/post/67208185/The-greatest-irony-of-life-is-loving (via xoxhippos)
" It is possible for the person you’ve never known to give you life, strength, and directions in which to grow. More possible than that, is that the most unlikely person can nuture these things, and make you better. And for this, I thank you. "
This isn’t actually a quote by anyone, I just kind of thought it up, but it reminds me of my birth father, who, despite never getting to know me, still gave me all of these things ( life, strengh and direction to grow ). I’ve struggled a lot with the idea of never knowing him, finding him, growing up without him, and in the end, my step - dad has stepped up and been the best father figure I’ve ever had ( the most unlikely person can nuture these things, and make you better ). He truly is my dad, and I love him in so many ways.
Because of my birth father, I live, breathe, and loook the way I do. His absence in my life has instilled a firm belief of the person I don’t want to be, and the things I don’t want to do.
My step - father has taught me to be everything that I can be, encourages everything I do, and dream towards. Loves me for all that I am, and accepts the things I cannot, or will not change. He has instilled some of my deepest, purest morals, and will never leave.
All of these lines across my face, tell you the story of who I am. So many stories of where I’ve been, and how I got to where I am. But these stories don’t mean anything, when you’ve got no one to tell them to. Yeah it’s true, I was made for you.
" The only way to get better at rugby is by playing more rugby. "
1) Manage to play U19s and women’s summer league. 2) Learn, study and play the game of sevens 3) Find a sevens team and play for them. 4) Tryout for Team Alberta. 5) Find out what it makes to make Team Canada. 6) Do whatever I can to get to the ultimate goal: 7) Summer Olympic Sevens.
I think that sometimes, we don’t really realize our passion, capability and talents until we are faced with the ultimate adversity of that time. The moment that, to that point in time, is the hardest thing we will face. It will make us dig deeper, make us play harder, make us step up to a level we never have before. A place within ourselves that we didn’t know we have. It will take us out of our comfort zone, and make us struggle to find a new place of comfort, a new state of mind. This can me a whole new place or state altogether, or simply modifying the one we have now.
" You only ever grow as a human being if you’re outside your comfort zone. "~ Percy Cerutty.
This applies to all walks of life.
Tomorrow, I get to attend an ID camp for a university. There are tons of girls here, many of which, are staying in the same hotel as I am. A lot of them are from the same school. They have each other, they give each other an advantage.
Screw their ” advantage “. They only give each other the advantage if I choose to believe they do. Everyone here is a capable, brilliant athlete. We all deserve to be here.
I will do everything that I can, and everything that is asked of me, and then some. I will be versatile, I will cooperative. I will be supportive, and I will be positive. I will be everything that I expect of athletes, whether they are my permanent teammates or not.
I will teammates proud. I will, in turn, make my coaches, friends, parents, and the people who look up to me proud. I will remember that pain is temporary, and pride is forever.
No matter how dim the sun looks, no matter how black the sky looks, no matter how alone you feel, no matter how depressed you feel, no matter what happened in your past, no matter how much he/she hurt you. Someone loves you, someone wants to listen, and that person will miss you if you ever left their life. The sun will rise, the sky will turn blue again.
I’m officially a hoooker. :) Needless to say, I’m stoked. New position, new things to adjust to. I’m ridiculously excited to be part of the tight five. And front rowing with my best friend? It doesn’t much better than that. Bring on the first game. I cannot wait.